I live in a magical world where my forest is surrounded by skyscrapers, hot dog venders and the unfortunate zombie-like creatures called tourists. Where I reside bullets are confused with fireworks and at night what comes out aren’t vampires but hookers. I’m a redheaded Puerto Rican with an overactive imagination.
I have a cupcake named muffin. A purple rocketship for my stars, a ginger eating an octopus and two bipolar clouds that scowl as much as my skull and crossbones. I ♥ vampires, werewolves, zombies, dinosaurs, the fae, robots, social networks, museums, photographs, music, hello kitty, my iPhone 4S named Bones, and my Nook Color named Zsadist.
Radiant as the Sun
We all know them.
They might even be some of our aquantencies or unfortunately a “friend”.
Those people who no matter what will find something negative to say. Especially when others are enjoying themselves. I’ve started this a couple times. Just sitting with my MacBook upset because people just don’t seem to understand that we all know your negativity towards others and things are just telling everyone else that you’re sad with your own existence. We get it. You hate yourself. But why make others not want to be around you even more? Depression is one thing, but when you’re the root of everything negative, then real depression will set in because no one will want to deal with you. Oh? No one wants to hang out? Maybe because when you hang out with people you spend 99% of the time judging and hating on everything. “Fuck this air. Air is lame.” that’s how debbie downers sound to me.
I’m clinically depressed. I have anxiety and I’m socially awkward. But guess what? Because I’ve decided to not depend on medication for my problems I depend on myself to see the good in everything. Shit, my back is fucked up and I’m on a no pay medical leave. I can’t afford what I’d like to afford and shit is really fucked up for me right now. But I got a smile on my face because I’m alive. Because I have a roof over my head. But when someone just has to be negative about every fucking thing it gets me down. It makes me not want to be around them. Everyone is going through shit. Everything isn’t perfect. But it’s up to you on how you deal with things. These people deal with things by taking everyone around them down with them. These are the people who will purposely hate on your favorite band solely because they’re a famous band and they’re so fucking unconformist that they MUST hate on them. They’re the ones that will say “that movie is gay, that is shit.” when they see people raving about a movie.
Maybe you wouldn’t be so fucking depressed if you weren’t such fucktards. Guess what? I don’t like a lot of things either, but I’m not going to put it down purposely because I see people like these things. It’s immature and I just don’t understand why it makes you people happy to put others down, to get them mad or sad just because you’re pathetic and want to slit your own wrists. Life is too short for that bullshit. I want to enjoy life regardless of what I’m going through. I hate to see people say something dumb directly after someone who’s excited about something. If you don’t fucking like it, the unfollow button is right there.
A few years back I was told I was never happy by someone, and I wasn’t. But I was a borderline debbie downer. Always had a snide remark or something annoyingly sarcastic to say about pretty much everything. But it wasn’t when the person told me that that I realized I should change. One day I was hanging out with my dad prior to his major surgery and he was laughing and joking about everything despite the fact that he was in immense pain and he wasn’t sure if he would live any longer. I looked at someone who literally had dead knocking at his door and he was smiling and making the best of life. Who the fuck am I to make life even worse by being so down not only with myself but with others. That’s when I said I wouldn’t be like that. What’s the point? It only made me feel worse.
Next time you want to sit there and post online about how sad and lonely you are, debbie downers, maybe you should look at yourself and how you treat others. Because the more negative you are, the more people will not want to be around you.
